Sunday, May 31, 2026

Short Story by Else Cederborg (Previously published): "Always Room for Doubt"

 
Dreamstime-picture

The little girl looked up at the woman, tears in her eyes. Then she bent forward and put her head into her hands, rocking back and forth, back and forth.
"Why did you lie to me?" the woman said in a harsh, monotonous voice, full of something that might very well be hatred or an intense dislike. "You must have known that I would find out about you." The "about you" was almost spat out like a curse. "You should be grateful for my helping you and your family, but you resemble your mother ...."
At the words "your mother" the little girl looked like she stopped listening. Instead she rocked back and forth even faster than before.
"Well, and now what shall I do to make you understand your social obligations in life?" 
The girl shot one fast glance at her, but didn't reply. "I shall see to it that you start thinking about your situation by collecting your toys and send it to someone who deserves it. Do you understand me?"
This time the girl dared a muffled "no" and at once the strong palm of the woman hit her cheek twice.
"What about now, did that help you to understand me?" the woman asked.
The girl didn't answer, but tears trickled down her cheeks, wetting her T-shirt.
"Now see what you've done," the woman yelled, shaking her fiercely by her naked and already bruised forearm.
At that moment there was someone at the door. The woman looked annoyed, but let go of the child's arm to answer the door. The girl sat listening to the muffled voices as the woman let in someone she couldn't see.
When she turned around and saw who it was she jumped to her feet, yelling "Karen" in a voice as if she didn't believe her own eyes. The newcomer opened her arms and drew her close.
"There, there," she said, kissing her wet cheek and patting her back, "what is this, Marie, are you crying?"
The child buried her head in her bosom and didn't answer. Instead the woman took over the conversation, saying in an angry voice: "Marie has been so very naughty today that I told her someone else was to get her toys."
"Naughty?" Karen said. "My little sister is never naughty." She held Marie at arm's length and now she noticed bruises, some old, some new, on her arms and in her face. "What is this, you are not allowed to beat my sister?"
The woman let out an annoyed hissing sound, and Karen let go of her little sister and turned to face her instead: "This must have been going on for some time. When I see these bruises …. Well, I'm taking my sister to the doctor to let him have a look at them. Don't expect that that will be the end of the matter ...."
That remark made the woman's facial expression turn from angry to worried. "I haven't done anything," she said, "except feeding and tending your sister, but sometimes she is very difficult to handle …."
The large eyes of the child looked directly into the eyes of her sister with steadfast glance. She didn't speak, but neither did she flinch. As the eyes of the sisters interlocked, Karen nodded one short nod, closed her eyes for a second and again turned towards the woman.
"I know that a child in grief may be difficult to communicate with, but one thing is for sure: My sister isn't naughty and she doesn't deserve to be beaten by the one who promised - and was paid - to look after her while I was away to bring order in our late mother's estate. I've only been gone for two weeks and to me it looks like Marie has been beaten every single day of that time."
By now the woman looked positively scared, and as Karen started to speak again, she hurriedly said: "I may have been a little harsh a couple of times and I'm sorry for that ...."
"All right, but that doesn't solve the problem because child care is your job, your obligation, and that's what pays your bills. Still, this happens so I feel that your business ought to be shut down for good."
"No-no, please understand, that Marie really was naughty, she ruined my TV and cut my books ...." At the words "ruined my TV" Karen glanced quickly at Marie.
"How did she ruin your TV?" she asked.
"I don't know, but it simply seized up when she used it the first time. The same happened with my coffee machine and my computer. I don't know what she does, but …."
At this statement the sisters slowly turned to face each other and Karen started to laugh while a sheepish smile erupted on Marie's face. "Oh you," Karen said, "I knew it, you've got it ...."
The woman looked bewildered at the sisters. "Well, I know that it's a difficult time for Marie - and for you - her mother just dying in such a gruesome way and everything ...."
"Yes," Karen said, "she was murdered by a flock of idiots who thought she was a witch …. that we know ...."
"How horrible, I really am very sorry ...." the woman said, but she looked more annoyed than sad.
"All right, Mrs. Smith, we shall not need you anymore, and I shall pay you what you deserve."
"We did agree upon fixed wages," the woman said, "so I have no doubt that ...."
Karen smiled and said: "Well, there is always room for doubts." While speaking she lifted her right arm as did Marie and both of the sisters pointed at Mrs. Smith while humming in a high pitched voice. The woman looked totally bewildered, but her facial expression changed into terror when she slowly fell to the floor, shrinking more and more. In a little while, all there was left was her clothes and something that moved within it. Karen and Marie watched as the creature in the clothes peeked out.
"A toad! I knew it!" Karen yelled, grabbing a heavy book from the coffe-table and bashing the creature over the head, flattening it to the floor.  

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Friday, May 29, 2026

The Female Surgeon of the Civil War

 


Dr. Mary Edwards Walker (1832-1919)

Quite a nice looking, young lady of the 19th century, right? At the first glimpse of this photo most people may not notice anything unusual about her. In her looks she resembles many other women of her time. However, two things stand out: Her medal and her attire, which in this photo is feminine, but that wasn't always the case with her. She is a woman, and looks like a woman, but in her lifetime she came to be known as a woman in men's clothes. When she was asked about her male attire, she said: "Those are not "men's clothes", I, and nobody else, own them so they are mine." So, in her opinion she defined her clothes, instead of them defining her, which is something I applaud as it speaks of both stamina and independence.

Cross-dressing may be seen as some kind of joke, but not so with this woman. She, her five sisters and one brother were raised by progressive parents, and she studied medicine. After her studies she married a fellow doctor, and they set up a medical clinic, but neither the marriage nor the clinic worked because of the prevalent prejudices against female doctors. However, she made a name for herself as an army surgeon and was known as Dr. Mary Edwards Walker, the only woman to receive this kind of honorary medals for her achievements in The Civil War. 

Her work with wounded soldiers was, so to speak, her excuse for wearing men's clothes, but it's obvious that she didn't only wear them when working. In old age she looked like a fine gentleman, not in the least feminine anymore. In her lifetime she went from this: 

to this:

I suspect that somehow she has become more renowned for her clothes than for her notable achievements as a surgeon, and that's unfair. However, these sad years of tRumpisism have led to the falsification of the history of women and black people which is something we should remember for better times: The truth is the truth, and should not be murdered for political or egomaniac reasons.   

Dr. Mary Edwards Walker was awarded the Congressional Medal of Honor by President Andrew Johnson in 1865. However, the U.S. government rescinded her medal and those of more than 900 others in 1917 when terms of eligibility for the medal was changed. Something which didn't stop her from wearing it for the rest of her life. Also, it sort of came back into history when this coin was issued:

 

https://www.womenshistory.org/education-resources/biographies/mary-edwards-walker 

 

https://youtu.be/VxBvFsoUZYI?si=_bEs2Xx52iG-7QgU 

 

https://youtu.be/VxBvFsoUZYI?si=yro24ZwM_f7DIJRe 

 

Wikipedia 


Tuesday, May 26, 2026

Symbolic Insults: When tRump Visited China

 

 

According to the "factsheet" that was issued by The White House after tRump's recent visit to China he achieved a lot. Also, "Xi is his friend, and everything was a huge success for the American president". Well, the all-in-all-impression of the visit comes out different for those who watched some of the videos of the top moments. Actually, in my opinion it came out as a Textbook Example of subtle, symbolic humiliations, and I confess, I love it. There were no screaming matches, physical fights or verbal insults, but still, I saw a continuous string of secret messages underlying the public moments of an ordinary State Visit.

A lot of pomp, but no Xi to greet the American president

It started in the airport as tRump wasn't given the warm welcome of, for instance, Putin. Why didn't Xi come to greet him like he has done with others? Not doing that is a potent signal of contempt: Xi doesn't see tRump as neither a personal friend nor a statesman of equal status. In my opinion, it was obvious that the Chinese president took trouble in making that fact clear to the world at large, and that tRump didn't have a chance of fighting the Chinese settings. However, tRump being tRump makes it more than likely that he didn't even catch the underlaying stream of insults in everything Xi did. It wasn't only the way the Chinese president made a point in holding back because of tRump's need of catching his breath. The chair which was lower than the one of Xi gave the same message of weakness, because it made him look smaller. On top of that it seems that he wasn't served any tea when the Chinese president had a cup. 

There were many sceneries with kids which is interesting when considering tRump's status as a pedophile after being mentioned in the files of Epstein, allegedly, more than 38,000 times. When Xi promised tRump the gift of Chinese rose seeds that must have been a subtle reference to the famous, American rose garden of Jackie Kennedy which now has been turned into a concrete waste land.


There is no personal friendship between tRump and Xi Jinping. Actually, the latter one signalled contempt for tRump and found a way to make that clear. Also, there were not many concrete political agreements or valuable trade deals which made the visit stand out as a success.  

 

 

Sunday, May 24, 2026

Poem by Else Cederborg: "Cinderellas"


 

Cinderellas



Stepchildren of my dreams and wishes

Hungry for life and adventures, but loved less

often sent out to clean the kitchen, the loo or whatever

Dancing shoes, fancy dresses and sexy princes are not for you


How come, when you do what you’re asked?

Never complain or rebel?


Sadly enough, stepchildren of my mind are not even substitutes

Being nothing to me, they scrub and scrub what shall never be praised as perfectly clean

 

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Friday, May 22, 2026

To Live A Life of Non-Existence


I know there is a movie by the name of "Dreamland", but I haven't watched it or even know much about it. Also, I doubt that it has a genuine bearing upon something I've always found very interesting although it may look like it's related to my subject. 
 
 

What I find very, very interesting and which sort of looks like some special "dreamland" is this: Comas. Death may be the ultimate "Dreamland", but if so comas come second. People in comas seem to be in a very deep sleep, but although not all comas are the same it's obvious that it's more than just a pleasant "nap". Some very deep comas you may never wake up from, but you may live a shadowy life totally dependent on those who take care of you and keep you alive.
 

I don't pretend to know much about the medical distinctions between different kinds of comas, and I see them more like an extraordinary - and very mysterious - spiritual experience that all of us may have if the goddesses of fate so decide: Have a stroke, a brain tumor, a traumatic head injury or let yourself sink into the "loving" arms of the gods of strong drugs or alcohol, and whoopsie, there you have your coma. Not that you may want it, but there it is, and I may last much longer than anyone would wish, least of all you or me. However, some comas may be more than just a little "weird", they a downright strange. This is one of them:
 

That poor girl lost three weeks of her ordinary life, but which she would have liked to exchange with her dream-life, raising children and whatever. I try to imagine something like that happening to me, and the possibilities are endless. I can imagine how I in my coma may live out my most secret dreams and get very upset when I wake up and find that they are just dreams and nothing but that. Actually, I think I would feel very cheated just like this young, unhappy, French girl. I bet she might experience some other alternate "dream-lives" if she ever had a new Coma, because I suspect that not all, but only some people have the ability to open up to something like what she experienced.

I wonder what the very sweet child star Jo Ann Marlow who appeared in 29 movies before she became a famous attorney experienced in her lengthy coma: She had a coma and didn't get out of it again. On the contrary, she spent 22 years in this coma before dying in 1991. Hopefully, her dream-landscape was one of pleasureful events with no room for nightmares or other horrors.   


 

Thursday, May 21, 2026

No Return: Two Lives Lost

Kelsey Smith (1989-2007) was a very pretty, young girl, who sadly enough was cheated out of her life after being abducted, raped and killed by a stranger in 2007. That means that her death was one of many with a well-known scenario: Horny guy sees beautiful/non-beautiful girl-child/woman and falls for the temptation of turning his sexual fantasies into realities at the cost of her life. The same story have been reenacted over and over: Different guy and different girl-child/woman, various means of murder, but all the victims abused and dead. The girls/women would say "I died for nothing", but the rapist-murderers would feel that what they did somehow was sanctioned by what they themselves felt as a strong, natural urge. Something which some of them would even be proud of, like e.g. Henry VIII who boasted about his three nightly ejaculations as if that would prove the masculinity that lied so very close to his heart.

The abduction happened from the parking lot at a Target store and there are good video takes both of the lot and of the movements of both Kelsey and Edwin Hall from inside the store. It's very obvious that she takes no interest whatsoever in him, but that he follows right on her trails, most likely in the futile hope that she would shift her attention from the anniversary gift for her boyfriend of six months she was looking for and direct it towards him. Something that never happened: She was simply blind to this percistent, but discreet stalker, who most likely had planned his crime in beforehand. Actually, it's like an animal predator out for a kill without the targeted victim seeing or hearing anything.  

Some days after this fatal shopping trip the body of Kelsey was found, and the hunt for her murderer got intense. Edwin Hall was seen on the surveillance videos, and he was targeted as the prime suspect. One of the most interesting aspects about this case is the technology that led to the arrest of him on August 1. First there was the footage of Kelsey being chased in the store by Edwin Hall, but discreetly and at a distance: Where she goes he follows, but all the time at a distance, and it's obvious that even if she saw him, she didn't notice him as anything but a fellow shopper. Then there is a video take from the parking lot showing her being forced into her car and driven away by a man. Later on this particular video made the neighbour of that man recognize him as the 26 years old Edwin Hall, who was living with his wife and their very young son. 

What led to the finding of her body and his life sentence was the video takes and telephone technology which I find quite impressive. Now the same tools are much more advanced than it was at that time, and I bet we are in for something even more "to the point" if that's what we chose. I for one like it, as I want criminals to be found and arrested, but it can't be denied that it's a key to the deepest layers of privacy there are, and when that is lost, it will be something forever, as that kind of anonymity will never be regained.


As to Edwin Hall he lost his life, but in another way than his victim. Some people will say that he had lost it even before it started: He was adopted at 7, but was returned to State custody at 15 after threatening the adopted family's daughter at knife's point. Also, he assaulted another boy with a baseball bat. With time, he may have become a violent criminal because those traits were already present in him. However, his sentence wasn't the death penalty that some had wanted, but life in prison without parole: Two lives were ruined which is sad, no matter what.

 

https://people.com/kelsey-smith-case-teen-shopping-anniversary-gift-predator-lurking-parking-lot-8726782 

 

Wikipedia 

 

 


Monday, May 18, 2026

Poem by Else Cederborg: "Crying Out"

 

 

Hello there!
Help!!!
Somewhere, something is crying out
I wonder to whom

A few words
one cry, repeated like heart beats
never any kind of reply
still, somewhere a desperate voice
 is crying out
- crying out
and crying out, but still, no answers 

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