Tuesday, December 30, 2025

Saved???


Well, it seems that I succeeded in saving my Boobytrap-blog, but I don't know why it, all of a sudden, acted crazy, so it may not be for long. Disasters happen, but I hope there will not be too many for either of in 2026.


HAPPY NEW YEAR to all of you

Monday, December 29, 2025

A New Blog???



As I for some time have had some WEIRD problems with my blog, BOOBYTRAP, I may close it and start another one, either here or somewhere else. If I do, I shall leave the link here.

The Liar's "Game"







Alas, not only Joseph Goebbels, but also our modern days piece of vermin, Donald Trump, has given his evidence that the same method of lying as the Nazi one is working just fine. Lying is an art, and some, like e.g. Goebbels, master it. As to Trump, he went too far, and have been found out too many times. That's why I find that he as a liar doesn't score as high as Goebbels. 


A special situation: The teacher caught the student in the lie of having done his homework. But WHY lie about something that obviously was a blatant lie? It's embarrassing to be found out so why risk that? Well, according to many/most psychologists lies are a natural kind of protection: This particular liar chose to chance it to keep on good terms with the teacher in order to protect  himself. 


Lying seems to be part of the human make-up, and young children of three years or so seem to have grasped the art of lying, because at that time the start to understand some of the more advanced intricacies of human societies. Something I find quite amazing. Even so, there is no doubt that both Goebbels and tRump has gone much too far in their lying habits.



Sunday, December 28, 2025

A Few Broodings About Faith

 



As is well-known it's a historical fact that breeds of deities have followed upon breeds of deities. Beliefs have changed with social circumstances, and humans have accepted new deities as their best friends whom they may turn to in the days of need. Actually, humans have proven over and over again that what they expect from their gods is the same as they would expect from the neighbouhood thug whom they befriendied in order to gain influence or just protection in a dangerous world. Sometimes the needy humans feel that this system works, sometimes not, but the main point is that all of them resort to ideas about invisible powers outside of themselves which control their life. It's a crazy notion,  but still it can't be ignored as part of the general human make-up as it seems to be part of the general idea of humans all over the planet. The gods may differ, but not the human wish for them and the help they want from them.
 

, The Queen Who Became An Author


Elizabeth of Wied (1843-1916), was born a German princess, and many found it very appropriate for her to marry the British prince who became King Edward Vii. I'm not sure when they met, but it seems to have been something his family set up for the young people. However, after being introduced to Elizabeth, young Edward declined to go further with the family plans of a marriage. Maybe he already had met his future bride, the American socialite, Wallis Simpson, at that time. Anyway, he didn't have eyes for Elizabeth, so she found another bridegroom, namely the first king of Romania, Carol I (1839–1914).

The couple only had one child, namely the princess Maria. Unfortunately, the child fell ill and died, only four years old. I suppose the loss of her daughter made Elizabeth even more inclined to follow her artistic dreams than before, simply to fill her days and bring meaning to her life. (However, that's me interpreting what happened, and I may be wrong). 

In her case that meant writing and publishing books, using the rather exotic pseudonym of Carmen Sylva. Actually, she was quite prolific, writing not a few works:  

           https://www.goodreads.com/author/list/1660504.Carmen_Sylva 

I must admit that I haven't read her books, but it's safe to say that her main theme is of a spiritual kind. She is preoccupied with the issue of suffering, and use the fairy tale genre.

 


Wednesday, December 24, 2025

New Forms of Misogyny

  

 

These years we seem to be drowning in floods of new forms of misogyny. Maybe the best term for it would be "The War of the Worlds", namely the male and the female worlds. As we know, they hold different ideologies, etc.. When I visit sites as e.g. Reddit I'm surprised at the fierce male hatred  of women and the blatant misogyny in young men. I've seen it in the older generations too, but didn't know that the younger ones are even worse. On some websites there seems to be a general male demand that more women - which means their own generation, sisters, wives, etc. - stop their feminism and instead return to the sex roles of their great-great-great-great-great-great-grandmothers or so: ONE sexual partner - namely them - and they must not lose their much prized virginity to anyone else, but these male "prizes". These men are considered able to satisfy them in any way possible simply by being who they are. On the other way, they should be free to roam the streets of whatever "love city" they fancy while women stay at home, tending the children. Strangely enough, these men have no suggestions as to how the women are to be provided for by male labor.

One might try to laugh off such naive delusions in modern times, but it's quite obvious that this is their genuine opinion. It may look liked children's fantasies, but to them it's "The Truth" - which it's not .... Sadly enough, the ideological climate has changed, and this new ideology is becoming "normalized".


Thursday, December 11, 2025

Female Sex-Murderer

They exist, but there are not as many as male sex-murderers. One of the most baffling cases is the one of the Hungarian Piroska Jancso-Ladanyi (1934-1954). She didn't kill men, but women, and her inclination to do so allegedly was her strong sexual drive. The author Szilard Rubin described her life extensively in the novel "Little Saints". 


Szilard Rubin 

The crimes of Piroska Jancso-Ladanyi were gruesome: She killed - and raped - five very young girls between 1953 and 1954. Her rape consisted of "rubbing herself against the corpse of the murdered girl". I take it that she was a sort of "misplaced lesbian" who tried to find her sexual way in a bewildering situation without ever being able to do so. That may not be so very surprising when considering her family background, which was pitiful to say the least. Not that it excuses what she did, but it may explain the pattern of her actions, at least up to a point

She was the daughter of a totally penniless woman who, at the age of 16, started to offer sexual favors to male farmers as part of her working for them as a maid. She had five children by four different men, one of them the biological father of Piroska and her brother Jozsef. He was forced to pay the sum of 600 forints as a "once and never again"-alimony for his daughter, not wanting to deal with her again. At that time she had followed in the footsteps of her mother, becoming a prostitute at a very young age. Her mother's customers were mostly Hungarians, whereas she often serviced Soviet soldiers from the nearby garnison. I suppose that's how she learnt to speak fluent Russian, which was something that was noticed when she was arrested for theft. At that time she wrote poetry, loved to wander around by herself, and most likely got more and more confused about who and what she was. All of that confusion ended when she was arrested as a female serial-killer and was hanged on December 12, 1954, leaving her son, Mihaly, motherless. Her last wish, namely to see him, was not granted. 


https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Piroska_Jancs%C3%B3-Lad%C3%A1nyi  

 

https://boobytrapec.blogspot.com/2025/03/woman-who-killed-for-lust.html 


Sunday, December 7, 2025

Myths of Sexual Organs

 

There are loads of vaginal myths out there in the public. One of these that I've seen before is this one about the "one hole" vagina. Although it's tempting to laugh it off as some crazy guys trying to be funny, or a hillbilly who doesn't know much after years in what I call "thoughts-and-prayers"-schools, it would not be fair on the guys and others like them. By now, I suspect that it's the individual teachers who don't feel obliged to see to it that the children they are set to educate aren't being taught basics. They feel embarrassed by the subject, or they simply didn't learn about it themselves. Now and then, it looks like there are some new, healthy, unbiased approaches toward the issue of biology and science, and that not everything is blotted out by religious fruitcakes, but then one may see hefty discussions like the one above and realizes that that's not the case: Biology and sex are still buried in myths, some sexist, and some simply proofs of extreme ignorance.

Surprisingly enough, even UK women need some biology lessons as well - yeah, maybe even many more people of all sexes all over the world don't know how to count entrances and outlets "down there" when it comes to women. As men have been "the normal" for ages, some may even hate the  truth that women have one more "hole" than men. It's crazy and not at all as it should be, but it seems very likely.


When it comes to men and their genitals, it shouldn't be that difficult to count what there is and what's what, but the working of the "gear" presents some problems because of the many myths surrounding the male sexual organ. Also, there may be some considerations about "not scaring the men of females" which give rise to some stupid mistakes. However, the truth is that females are much more developed "down there" than males. That shouldn't come as a surprise, but often does, as the key to the matter is visibility. In the days of Shakespeare the female organ was nicknamed "Nothing", because women don't sport something that makes itself gain a surplus visibility through erections.  
 

When it comes to sexual organs, men are like the Platupus which are Monotrema and thus belongs to the group of ancient living mammals. Being monotrema these animals are primitive, and it may be tempting to some to use that fact in jokes about the male sex and their worshipping their penis and its symbolical value in male legends of grandeur and power.
 

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC1635139/

 

https://www.iflscience.com/nearly-half-of-uk-women-dont-know-how-many-holes-they-have-down-there-survey-finds-59888 

 

https://www.news-medical.net/news/20170831/5025-of-men-struggle-to-identify-a-womans-vagina-correctly-on-a-diagram-Survey.aspx 

 

https://www.vice.com/en/article/pussy-bites-back-vagina-dentata-myths-from-around-the-world/ 


Wikipedia

 

Britannica

 


Saturday, December 6, 2025

Stealing out of "love" for the stolen objects or out of greed?

 

It's a very strange experience for a writer to see how one of the worst leeches of the world of books, Filippo Bernardini, got away with his theft of unpublished works, e.g. by a well-known author like Margaret Atwood. By pretending to be a legitimate publisher/employee he got access to many unpublished scripts of both newbie authors and established ones, and he is supposed to have stolen more than 1000 manuscripts. HOW did he avoid prison for something like that??? To me, that is something quite incomprehensable because each script represents work by an author: Time spent, ideas, and the writing itself don't float around in a workless sphere, but takes dedication and stamina, just like e.g. harvesting by a farmer. The sentence of Filippo Bernardini only was for a much deserved deportation as well as restitution money to the biggest name in publishing, Penguin House: $88,000.


To be able to steal the unpublished manuscripts he impersonated publishing professionals, which also makes him an "identity thief". It's amazing - as well as scary - that he succeeded in this scheme for quite a long time: From 2016 until his arrest in 2022. In my opinion committing aggravated identity theft should have landed him in jail, and the theft should have kept him there: Both the stealing of manuscripts and the identity theft should have been punished by the law, and I feel that the authors and the publishing world as such were let down by the judicial world.




https://www.vulture.com/2023/03/book-thief-filippo-bernardini-gets-no-jail-time-deported.htmlhttps://www.bbc.com/news/entertainment-arts-59893035



https://nypost.com/2023/03/10/book-thief-filippo-bernardini-claims-love-of-reading-drove-him-to-steal/



https://www.theguardian.com/books/2023/mar/24/book-fraudster-filippo-bernardini-spared-jail


https://www.bbc.com/news/world-us-canada-64197625

 
 

Wikipedia

 

Monday, December 1, 2025

Bad Genes: Joseph and Nicholas Brooks

 

Joseph Brooks doesn't exactly look like the picture of a "cover-boy" of romantic music. Nonetheless, he wrote the hit song "You Light Up My World", besides producing and directing the 1977-drama of the same name, all of which brought him fame and wealth. Also, he composed e.g. "Blue Balloon" as well as jingles for e.g. Pepsi and Maxwell House. However, somewhere along the road he seems to have turned from a well-known and appreciated song-writer into a detestable criminal: A serial rapist. The winner of an Academy Award, a Golden Globe Award and a Grammy Award ended up committing suicide before his trial for rape in 2011. When that happened, his son, Nicholas, was also facing prison for a serious crime, namely murder.


Nicholas Brooks

Looking quite cute, the son of Joseph Brooks, Nicholas, led a happy-go-lucky playboy-life. He never had any kind of career after he dropped out of college, and didn't seem to want to commit himself to anything but drugs. They were the true "love of his life", but in 2010 the charming, young man (24 years old) caught the eye of the Peruvian-American swimsuit designer, Sylvie Cachay (1977-2010). They bonded after one of her dogs was hit by a car, and he comforted and helped her after the accident. Contrary to him, she was a successful woman with a fine career as a fashion designer. She was the one who headed the swimsuit designing team of Victoria's Secret, which was one of her many achievements that cemented her fame in the world of fashion. 

They became a couple in 2010, but their relationship met with many difficulties, and it seems to have been an off-on affair for most of the time. She was a success - as well as somewhat older than him - but he was a failure, with economic problems and no real plans of solving them. He didn't have a good relationship with his father, even though he was the one who paid for his volatile life-style. 

On December 9, 2010, Sylvie was found strangled and drowned in a bathtub at the Soho House where the couple was staying at the time. At that time, they had been together for six months, but she may have made it clear to him that she wanted out of their relationship, which could be the trigger that turned him into a murderer. Anyway, he was convicted of murdering her, and on September 23, 2013, he was sentenced to 25 years to life. 

What went wrong with this father and son? That's anybody's guess ....

 

https://nypost.com/tag/nicholas-brooks/ 

 

https://www.imdb.com/name/nm0112072/  

 

https://nymag.com/news/features/71271/ 

 

Wikipedia 

 

 

 

Friday, November 28, 2025

The Literary Formula of Consolation and Acceptance

 


 Jane Austen

Some authors are formula writers, even some great authors like e.g. Jane Austen, although nobody would call her that as the term is considered derogatory. Someone like e.g. Philippa Gregory, who has published a lot of historical romances, also is a formula writer: Each one of her books always has a fixated gallery of main characters, namely a Whore and an Angel. The fixated gallery of Jane Austen will be the smart, but not the most beautiful girl who - sometimes to her own surprise - conquers the richest, but very demure and even unpleasant hero, like, for instance, Mr. Darcy of "Pride and Prejudice". When conquered, he changes into a loving husband who simply adores his bride. 

Actually, one will meet this very same formula in e.g. the works of the late "Queen of Romance", Barbara Cartland. To me, the consistent formula writings of many female authors signals something very interesting as to the use of these books. They have been the favorite literature of "taken women", i.e. the non-feminist readers, who need to find confirmation of ideologies they have been taught since early childhood: YOU are the ultimate prize of the love game in Patriarchy, not the helpless victim to the ruses of men. Even though you may seem to be suppressed by society, you will always win because you, morally and in other ways, are the one who score the highest.

The predictable storylines of formula fiction is not a coincidence, but what it's all about: Get hold of a confusing world which not always takes too kindly to women.


Sunday, November 23, 2025

Hands And Shoulders Telling A Story

 

No, that's not normal! Also, what's not quite "normal" - or at least common - is the tRumpian "body twist" when he is delivering a speech of some kind. As far as I can see, the twist starts at his waist and then goes up, making his shoulders move in a sudden jerk/twist. It's surprising that a twist may be part of flirtation, whereas the "jerk" may signal a medical condition that needs treatment. Is he flirting with the audience? Yes, of course he is, as he is out to seduce them into electing and supporting him. When I see him performing his special twist, I see it as something insincere or even traitorous in his speeches, but that may be taking the interpretation a bit too far - may be ....

This photo depicts a hand gesture that's common in people who want to point out their authority. That seems to be the favorite hand gesture of Elon Musk, but as can be seen, tRump uses it too. However, often he cradles his right hand in his left hand as if he wants to protect it. That cradled, and thus protected, hand has quite often been seen with weird disfigurements looking like some kind of bruises, which indicates a medical problem of some kind. Anyway, the cradling looks like his special way of giving himself comfort, and it's interesting that that hand gesture is more common in him than the "stapling" of fingers that signals the wish to exude authority.

Elon Musk and his habit of finger stapling looks more genuinely concerned with a strong wish for authority than tRump which is a bit surprising. Maybe he doesn't feel as secure and powerful as he wants to come out to the public - and to tRump? 
 


Max Ernst

Hands are unique body parts, giving us and our "cousins", monkeys of all kinds, opportunities to make an impact on the world as such. As everyone with a loving dog knows, paws may be quite nice, but they can't compete with a hand when it comes to altering what makes our world work. Also, paws come short when it comes to body language which is both good and bad: They may be tell-tale traitors .... 

 

https://www.helpguide.org/relationships/communication/nonverbal-communication 

 

https://www.wikihow.com/Clasped-Hands#:~:text=Holding%20hands%20with%20someone%20else,re%20trying%20to%20self%2Dsoothe

 

Wikipedia


Wednesday, November 19, 2025

The "Smartest" Person On Earth?

 

William James Sidis (1898-1944)

This mathematician has often been referred to as the “smartest person who ever lived on this planet.” According to his sister, a psychologist estimated him to have an IQ between 250 and 300. Records of his childhood told about how he was able to read newspapers at 18 months, spoke several languages at an early age, lectured at Harvard at age 12, as well as invented his own language. The invention of the language doesn't impress me the most, as I think many kids do, or attempt to do, something like that. However, not many lecture on four-dimensional geometry at Harvard at the age of 12 or write four books as a child. In 1914 he graduated cum laude, 16 years old.

OK, he was a genius, but somehow it didn't come to much in the long run. That is, not much as to an academical career, because he seems to have been very diligent in his studies, and he published many books and articles under various pseudonyms as he hated being in the focus of the public. 

His many topics ranged from Native American history, urban transportation systems, mathematics and cosmology. He often felt that he and his ideas were not understood by his contemporaries, and I suppose he was right. Living in seclusion, even extolling it as necessary for him, makes it more understandable that he ended up a penniless office clerk and not "The King of Academics" he seemed to be born to become. He didn't fit in, and may have been depressed.

In 1944 he died from a brain hemorrhage, which may have been brought on by his legal troubles after suing "The New Yorker" for a story about him, "April Fool", which he felt was humiliating by pointing out his lack of success after having been a child prodigy.


https://medium.com/@keriannesheree/a-tortured-genius-bce8c03a109a 

 

https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/19750232/william-james-sidis 

 

Wikipedia

 


Sunday, November 16, 2025

Performance Issues "Solved" by Killing Women

Henry VIII (18 years old)

As a young man, he was considered extremely handsome. Well, that may be the case, as it's difficult to estimate his looks from this old portrait. Normally, we think of him as the male hormone-bomb of later years, strutting along, flaunting his masculinity as some sort of banner of what he is as a human being.

I think his calves earned him most compliments, but to him, the most important part of his body must have been "the bulge" that sets him apart as a man. He was a man, and at one time, (or several times???), he boasted about his nightly ejaculations which he saw as a proof that he was all butch. However, boasting doesn't prove anything, and his behavior with women may indicate that the situation wasn't the best for either him as a person or his dynastic dreams of many healthy sons.

One of his favorite manly exploits was jostling. As a young man, being the sole, surviving male heir to the throne, he was not allowed to engage in this dangerous sport, but as a king he loved to show off his bravery and his skill by jostling. However, in 1524 he had a very serious accident when he forgot to close the vizier of his helmet, and his opponent had some problems with his outfit. Unfortunately, Henry VIII was hit in a manner that might have killed him, but which "only" set off a long line of health problems that ruined almost everything for him. Not that the accident is the sole reason for what may have been caused by weight gains, Diabetes, etc., but there is a marked difference of the quality of his life before and after it happened. One of these differences was his ability to perform sexually as before. His virility was impaired and one wonders if that was the reason for his executing two of his wives, Anne Boleyn and her cousin, Catherine Howard.

Catherine Howard 

Anne kept her tongue, but still his sexual problems may have been one of the reasons for his wish to get rid of her. With Catherine, it was different: She was a rather giddy, young thing who betrayed the besotted king, who then turned upon her, blaming her for adultery and for not having been a virgin when they married. To me, it seems that his perceptible masculine vanity played a major part in his execution of her as a witness to his failure in the royal bed. That part of the history of his "serial executions" of wives, as well as his rejection of the "ugly" Anne of Cleves, signals a hurt masculine vanity that only might be alleviated by getting rid of those who might expose him.

  

 

Friday, November 14, 2025

The Fuzzy-Headed Genius, Alan Turing

  


Alan Turing (1912-1954)

The prime "father" of the modern computer was a gay, British man who met a lot of problems in his life, but who succeeded in solving problems others had had to give up on. His work on what turned into the modern computer started with his wish to take on the Entscheidungsproblem that gave fellow scientists a headache. In 1936 he came into goal by inventing The "Universal Turing Machine" that had instructions in symbols that could manipulate other symbols. 

In WWII he made a valuable contribution as one of the codebreakers for the UK government, who worked at the special codebreaker center, Bletchley Park. It has been said that without him the war would have lasted several years longer. What he - and his colleagues, like his short timed fiancée, Joan Clarke - did was to work on decoding the German Enigma cipher machine so that the Brits could intercept Nazi-messages and decode them. Something which, of course, was of great value to them in the war. After the war he went on developing his computer ideas, which, however, led to something else: His studies in artificial intelligence. This part of his ongoing studies were made famous in a paper, he published in 1950 on a subject that must have been seen as rather far-fetched at that time: "Can machines think"? His so-called "Turing test" was part of these studies as it was set to determine whether a machine could imitate human conversations.

Alan Turing has been estimated to have an IQ of ca. 185, putting him in the top 0.1% of the British population. Always thinking and studying, he came up with many new ideas and inventions all through his life, but in some respect he proved to be the "fuzzy professor" of many hilarious cartoons: Fearing a Nazi invasion he bought silver bars for what may have been most of his money. The reason for this was, that he wanted to shield them from the Nazis by burying them somewhere only he knew. However, he sort of forgot where that safe place was, and he seems to have had problems with decoding the code for it, so the silver may still be hidden somewhere in the underground of England.


Anyway, in 1950 he was accused of what was considered a criminal offense at that time: A sexual relationship with a man. He was given the choice of undergoing a hormonal treatment to reduce his "sinful libido" or go to jail. He chose the medical treatment, and I suppose it may have had a negative effect on him, maybe even leading to his death by what is considered to be a suicide in 1954. It took many years for the State to pardon him for his "gross offense", as it didn't happen until 2013 after a campaign to recognize him as a national hero. Four years later the same kind of pardon was given to all gay men/people who had been convicted for homosexuality.

 

Monday, November 10, 2025

The Fraudulent Schemes of Violet Charlesworth

 

A beautiful woman, but I think that's a small ironic smile. Maybe my knowledge of whom - and what - she was makes me see something that's not there, but no matter what, this photo of Violet Charlesworth (1884-some time after 1912) strikes me as a nominator of smartness, irony and the special pride known as arrogance. However, other people would most likely have felt a certain shame at being and doing what she was and did, but that I see nothing of in her portrait: She loved to fake whatever she set her mind to fake, including her own biography, her character - and her non-existing wealth.

She was an Englishwoman with a proclaimed love for Scotland, (which may have been a pretence!). For several years she defrauded people to believe that she was a very wealthy heiress who would soon inherit a substantial fortune. That was absolutely not true, but people believed her and her fabricated identity as a woman of a good, rich family. Why? Well, she was pretty and charming. Also, she appeared to be of a certain social standing. The reason for this pretence was to obtain loans and favors from those who were what she claimed to be, namely rich.

Many people must have been shocked when it was reputed that she had died in a freak car accident, when she and her car fell off a cliff and were swept away by the sea. However, some didn't believe in this quite convenient accident that sort of blotted her and her loans out - or so she thought. As her body was nowhere to be found, and there were no trustworthy witnesses, an investigation was started, and soon she was found for real, alive and probably thriving, in Scotland. In 1910 both she and her mother were charged with obtaining money under false pretences, and they were sentenced to five years of prison, but strangely enough after some time the sentence was reduced to three years. When she was released in 1912 she went back to Scotland, but from then on all traces of her and her life have been missing. Weird? Yeah, but also very interesting because it can't have been all that easy to make herself "invisible" as her trial had made her quite famous, both within and outside of Britain.

 

 

https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/c4grj1gpe2ro 

 

https://historypoints.org/index.php?page=site-of-violet-s-leap-penmaenbach 

 

https://geoffbrookes.co.uk/violet-charlesworth/ 

 

Wikipedia

 

Tuesday, November 4, 2025

"The Innocent One": Short story by Else Cederborg

 


AI-picture by Else Cederborg
 

The Innocent One



The pressure on her arm was surprisingly tight. Then there were the fierce wrigglings and kicks. All that, including the screaming and the mouth like an "O" with rage and disgust in that small, perfectly shaped, but by now reddish face, was evidence that this very, very young lady had what was needed and that she would never become like her mother even before she got sick.

Doreen-Marie was the child's name, but in looks and in actions she was more like the brave and headstrong heroines of the past, even relentless like a born Amazon warrior-queen.

Being her great-aunt was more and more becoming a pleasure, and the adoption a dream that came true. This was even better than giving birth herself, the new mother of the child thought. The only tag was the father of the baby because unknown DNA is like a hidden and disguised bomb, waiting to explode. Who knows what's in a string of inherited character traits when the owner of it is unknown?

Yes, this pretty, wild and wonderful firecracker might easily have ended up as a blood clot in a pan. No wrigglings, no kicks or fierce stare at the one who attempted to hold her as she, who was actually much too young to as much as walk, wanted to run and have fun on her own.

When her unwanted presence was detected by the doctors of her very young mother, it had been too late to turn what was now a living child into a shady memory of abuse and mystery. The child, this innocent troublemaker, had grown to become a demanding wonder, always hungry, always on the alert to obtain what she needed to grow even more. And who gave it to her? At first the personnel at the orphanage, those who had wanted to give her away to the first, the best individual who wanted her.

One of those who really did want to give her a home was the woman who now was holding her so lovingly, actually her great aunt, and she won this small treasure, but then didn't her wealthy and well-connected family always win? No, when the girl who was to give birth to this child was hit by a run-away car and lost her identity in a severe brain-damage they didn't win anything except a very young woman suddenly turned into a 5 year old girl. The driver was never found, never prosecuted or sentenced and nobody knew who he was.

Neither did anyone know, or even guess, the name of the unknown man who was responsible for the birth of this small, wild, and beautiful addition to an old family. Who had abused, seduced or lured her young mother into sexual acts that had lead to this unexpected birth? Who had DARED to approach the brain-damaged daughter of the rich, old family? Nobody knew, but they guessed at some pedlar, or perhaps a servant. Seeing her perfectly shaped baby face didn't lead to any clues, but it did give rise to new questions: Who was she, this fairy, this small angel from nowhere? And, what was even more important, did it really matter when the child was as healthy and beautiful as this baby?

Her adoptive mother sat down and watched her given daughter closely, quite amazed at the love she felt for what she saw, each and one unknown feature, mixed with her own strong family traits. The child looked back at her, cocking her head a little as if she herself was deliberating something important and was browsed her features to find an answer to a delicate question, most likely something like e.g. this one: "Who is this old woman? Should I accept such a strange looking one as my mother?"

Her puckered brow made her look so funny, like a very old, wise school-marm, that her adoptive mother couldn't help laughing out loud. The child caught on to this rippling sound and started to laugh herself. Mother and daughter looked at each other, eye to eye, laughter to laughter, and their inner beings interlocked like two hands meeting in a handshake.

"Oh yes," the mother thought, "no matter who you are, you're a gem, no doubt about it, and we are a team against all the world, should they be prejudiced against us."

As to the child, then her beautiful, blue eyes grew even bigger with delight, and now she contemplated her new mother, with pleasure, yeah even with happiness. No more kicks, no more screams, at least for the time being, only pleasure and contentment at sitting on the friendly lap of this woman. 
 
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And, by the way, I'm, still for Roe, and a woman's free will to choose. However, even so, I'm not blind to the fact, that a choice isn't something lightweight, but that's the case in most choices. What may be best for the one, may be a great loss in someone else ....