Sunday, May 31, 2026

Short Story by Else Cederborg (Previously published): "Always Room for Doubt"

 
Dreamstime-picture

The little girl looked up at the woman, tears in her eyes. Then she bent forward and put her head into her hands, rocking back and forth, back and forth.
"Why did you lie to me?" the woman said in a harsh, monotonous voice, full of something that might very well be hatred or an intense dislike. "You must have known that I would find out about you." The "about you" was almost spat out like a curse. "You should be grateful for my helping you and your family, but you resemble your mother ...."
At the words "your mother" the little girl looked like she stopped listening. Instead she rocked back and forth even faster than before.
"Well, and now what shall I do to make you understand your social obligations in life?" 
The girl shot one fast glance at her, but didn't reply. "I shall see to it that you start thinking about your situation by collecting your toys and send it to someone who deserves it. Do you understand me?"
This time the girl dared a muffled "no" and at once the strong palm of the woman hit her cheek twice.
"What about now, did that help you to understand me?" the woman asked.
The girl didn't answer, but tears trickled down her cheeks, wetting her T-shirt.
"Now see what you've done," the woman yelled, shaking her fiercely by her naked and already bruised forearm.
At that moment there was someone at the door. The woman looked annoyed, but let go of the child's arm to answer the door. The girl sat listening to the muffled voices as the woman let in someone she couldn't see.
When she turned around and saw who it was she jumped to her feet, yelling "Karen" in a voice as if she didn't believe her own eyes. The newcomer opened her arms and drew her close.
"There, there," she said, kissing her wet cheek and patting her back, "what is this, Marie, are you crying?"
The child buried her head in her bosom and didn't answer. Instead the woman took over the conversation, saying in an angry voice: "Marie has been so very naughty today that I told her someone else was to get her toys."
"Naughty?" Karen said. "My little sister is never naughty." She held Marie at arm's length and now she noticed bruises, some old, some new, on her arms and in her face. "What is this, you are not allowed to beat my sister?"
The woman let out an annoyed hissing sound, and Karen let go of her little sister and turned to face her instead: "This must have been going on for some time. When I see these bruises …. Well, I'm taking my sister to the doctor to let him have a look at them. Don't expect that that will be the end of the matter ...."
That remark made the woman's facial expression turn from angry to worried. "I haven't done anything," she said, "except feeding and tending your sister, but sometimes she is very difficult to handle …."
The large eyes of the child looked directly into the eyes of her sister with steadfast glance. She didn't speak, but neither did she flinch. As the eyes of the sisters interlocked, Karen nodded one short nod, closed her eyes for a second and again turned towards the woman.
"I know that a child in grief may be difficult to communicate with, but one thing is for sure: My sister isn't naughty and she doesn't deserve to be beaten by the one who promised - and was paid - to look after her while I was away to bring order in our late mother's estate. I've only been gone for two weeks and to me it looks like Marie has been beaten every single day of that time."
By now the woman looked positively scared, and as Karen started to speak again, she hurriedly said: "I may have been a little harsh a couple of times and I'm sorry for that ...."
"All right, but that doesn't solve the problem because child care is your job, your obligation, and that's what pays your bills. Still, this happens so I feel that your business ought to be shut down for good."
"No-no, please understand, that Marie really was naughty, she ruined my TV and cut my books ...." At the words "ruined my TV" Karen glanced quickly at Marie.
"How did she ruin your TV?" she asked.
"I don't know, but it simply seized up when she used it the first time. The same happened with my coffee machine and my computer. I don't know what she does, but …."
At this statement the sisters slowly turned to face each other and Karen started to laugh while a sheepish smile erupted on Marie's face. "Oh you," Karen said, "I knew it, you've got it ...."
The woman looked bewildered at the sisters. "Well, I know that it's a difficult time for Marie - and for you - her mother just dying in such a gruesome way and everything ...."
"Yes," Karen said, "she was murdered by a flock of idiots who thought she was a witch …. that we know ...."
"How horrible, I really am very sorry ...." the woman said, but she looked more annoyed than sad.
"All right, Mrs. Smith, we shall not need you anymore, and I shall pay you what you deserve."
"We did agree upon fixed wages," the woman said, "so I have no doubt that ...."
Karen smiled and said: "Well, there is always room for doubts." While speaking she lifted her right arm as did Marie and both of the sisters pointed at Mrs. Smith while humming in a high pitched voice. The woman looked totally bewildered, but her facial expression changed into terror when she slowly fell to the floor, shrinking more and more. In a little while, all there was left was her clothes and something that moved within it. Karen and Marie watched as the creature in the clothes peeked out.
"A toad! I knew it!" Karen yelled, grabbing a heavy book from the coffe-table and bashing the creature over the head, flattening it to the floor.  

CopyRight Else Cederborg

Friday, May 29, 2026

The Female Surgeon of the Civil War

 


Dr. Mary Edwards Walker (1832-1919)

Quite a nice looking, young lady of the 19th century, right? At the first glimpse of this photo most people may not notice anything unusual about her. In her looks she resembles many other women of her time. However, two things stand out: Her medal and her attire, which in this photo is feminine, but that wasn't always the case with her. She is a woman, and looks like a woman, but in her lifetime she came to be known as a woman in men's clothes. When she was asked about her male attire, she said: "Those are not "men's clothes", I, and nobody else, own them so they are mine." So, in her opinion she defined her clothes, instead of them defining her, which is something I applaud as it speaks of both stamina and independence.

Cross-dressing may be seen as some kind of joke, but not so with this woman. She, her five sisters and one brother were raised by progressive parents, and she studied medicine. After her studies she married a fellow doctor, and they set up a medical clinic, but neither the marriage nor the clinic worked because of the prevalent prejudices against female doctors. However, she made a name for herself as an army surgeon and was known as Dr. Mary Edwards Walker, the only woman to receive this kind of honorary medals for her achievements in The Civil War. 

Her work with wounded soldiers was, so to speak, her excuse for wearing men's clothes, but it's obvious that she didn't only wear them when working. In old age she looked like a fine gentleman, not in the least feminine anymore. In her lifetime she went from this: 

to this:

I suspect that somehow she has become more renowned for her clothes than for her notable achievements as a surgeon, and that's unfair. However, these sad years of tRumpisism have led to the falsification of the history of women and black people which is something we should remember for better times: The truth is the truth, and should not be murdered for political or egomaniac reasons.   

Dr. Mary Edwards Walker was awarded the Congressional Medal of Honor by President Andrew Johnson in 1865. However, the U.S. government rescinded her medal and those of more than 900 others in 1917 when terms of eligibility for the medal was changed. Something which didn't stop her from wearing it for the rest of her life. Also, it sort of came back into history when this coin was issued:

 

https://www.womenshistory.org/education-resources/biographies/mary-edwards-walker 

 

https://youtu.be/VxBvFsoUZYI?si=_bEs2Xx52iG-7QgU 

 

https://youtu.be/VxBvFsoUZYI?si=yro24ZwM_f7DIJRe 

 

Wikipedia 


Tuesday, May 26, 2026

Symbolic Insults: When tRump Visited China

 

 

According to the "factsheet" that was issued by The White House after tRump's recent visit to China he achieved a lot. Also, "Xi is his friend, and everything was a huge success for the American president". Well, the all-in-all-impression of the visit comes out different for those who watched some of the videos of the top moments. Actually, in my opinion it came out as a Textbook Example of subtle, symbolic humiliations, and I confess, I love it. There were no screaming matches, physical fights or verbal insults, but still, I saw a continuous string of secret messages underlying the public moments of an ordinary State Visit.

A lot of pomp, but no Xi to greet the American president

It started in the airport as tRump wasn't given the warm welcome of, for instance, Putin. Why didn't Xi come to greet him like he has done with others? Not doing that is a potent signal of contempt: Xi doesn't see tRump as neither a personal friend nor a statesman of equal status. In my opinion, it was obvious that the Chinese president took trouble in making that fact clear to the world at large, and that tRump didn't have a chance of fighting the Chinese settings. However, tRump being tRump makes it more than likely that he didn't even catch the underlaying stream of insults in everything Xi did. It wasn't only the way the Chinese president made a point in holding back because of tRump's need of catching his breath. The chair which was lower than the one of Xi gave the same message of weakness, because it made him look smaller. On top of that it seems that he wasn't served any tea when the Chinese president had a cup. 

There were many sceneries with kids which is interesting when considering tRump's status as a pedophile after being mentioned in the files of Epstein, allegedly, more than 38,000 times. When Xi promised tRump the gift of Chinese rose seeds that must have been a subtle reference to the famous, American rose garden of Jackie Kennedy which now has been turned into a concrete waste land.


There is no personal friendship between tRump and Xi Jinping. Actually, the latter one signalled contempt for tRump and found a way to make that clear. Also, there were not many concrete political agreements or valuable trade deals which made the visit stand out as a success.  

 

 

Sunday, May 24, 2026

Poem by Else Cederborg: "Cinderellas"


 

Cinderellas



Stepchildren of my dreams and wishes

Hungry for life and adventures, but loved less

often sent out to clean the kitchen, the loo or whatever

Dancing shoes, fancy dresses and sexy princes are not for you


How come, when you do what you’re asked?

Never complain or rebel?


Sadly enough, stepchildren of my mind are not even substitutes

Being nothing to me, they scrub and scrub what shall never be praised as perfectly clean

 

All Rights Reserved©Else Cederborg  

 

 



 

Friday, May 22, 2026

To Live A Life of Non-Existence


I know there is a movie by the name of "Dreamland", but I haven't watched it or even know much about it. Also, I doubt that it has a genuine bearing upon something I've always found very interesting although it may look like it's related to my subject. 
 
 

What I find very, very interesting and which sort of looks like some special "dreamland" is this: Comas. Death may be the ultimate "Dreamland", but if so comas come second. People in comas seem to be in a very deep sleep, but although not all comas are the same it's obvious that it's more than just a pleasant "nap". Some very deep comas you may never wake up from, but you may live a shadowy life totally dependent on those who take care of you and keep you alive.
 

I don't pretend to know much about the medical distinctions between different kinds of comas, and I see them more like an extraordinary - and very mysterious - spiritual experience that all of us may have if the goddesses of fate so decide: Have a stroke, a brain tumor, a traumatic head injury or let yourself sink into the "loving" arms of the gods of strong drugs or alcohol, and whoopsie, there you have your coma. Not that you may want it, but there it is, and I may last much longer than anyone would wish, least of all you or me. However, some comas may be more than just a little "weird", they a downright strange. This is one of them:
 

That poor girl lost three weeks of her ordinary life, but which she would have liked to exchange with her dream-life, raising children and whatever. I try to imagine something like that happening to me, and the possibilities are endless. I can imagine how I in my coma may live out my most secret dreams and get very upset when I wake up and find that they are just dreams and nothing but that. Actually, I think I would feel very cheated just like this young, unhappy, French girl. I bet she might experience some other alternate "dream-lives" if she ever had a new Coma, because I suspect that not all, but only some people have the ability to open up to something like what she experienced.

I wonder what the very sweet child star Jo Ann Marlow who appeared in 29 movies before she became a famous attorney experienced in her lengthy coma: She had a coma and didn't get out of it again. On the contrary, she spent 22 years in this coma before dying in 1991. Hopefully, her dream-landscape was one of pleasureful events with no room for nightmares or other horrors.   


 

Thursday, May 21, 2026

No Return: Two Lives Lost

Kelsey Smith (1989-2007) was a very pretty, young girl, who sadly enough was cheated out of her life after being abducted, raped and killed by a stranger in 2007. That means that her death was one of many with a well-known scenario: Horny guy sees beautiful/non-beautiful girl-child/woman and falls for the temptation of turning his sexual fantasies into realities at the cost of her life. The same story have been reenacted over and over: Different guy and different girl-child/woman, various means of murder, but all the victims abused and dead. The girls/women would say "I died for nothing", but the rapist-murderers would feel that what they did somehow was sanctioned by what they themselves felt as a strong, natural urge. Something which some of them would even be proud of, like e.g. Henry VIII who boasted about his three nightly ejaculations as if that would prove the masculinity that lied so very close to his heart.

The abduction happened from the parking lot at a Target store and there are good video takes both of the lot and of the movements of both Kelsey and Edwin Hall from inside the store. It's very obvious that she takes no interest whatsoever in him, but that he follows right on her trails, most likely in the futile hope that she would shift her attention from the anniversary gift for her boyfriend of six months she was looking for and direct it towards him. Something that never happened: She was simply blind to this percistent, but discreet stalker, who most likely had planned his crime in beforehand. Actually, it's like an animal predator out for a kill without the targeted victim seeing or hearing anything.  

Some days after this fatal shopping trip the body of Kelsey was found, and the hunt for her murderer got intense. Edwin Hall was seen on the surveillance videos, and he was targeted as the prime suspect. One of the most interesting aspects about this case is the technology that led to the arrest of him on August 1. First there was the footage of Kelsey being chased in the store by Edwin Hall, but discreetly and at a distance: Where she goes he follows, but all the time at a distance, and it's obvious that even if she saw him, she didn't notice him as anything but a fellow shopper. Then there is a video take from the parking lot showing her being forced into her car and driven away by a man. Later on this particular video made the neighbour of that man recognize him as the 26 years old Edwin Hall, who was living with his wife and their very young son. 

What led to the finding of her body and his life sentence was the video takes and telephone technology which I find quite impressive. Now the same tools are much more advanced than it was at that time, and I bet we are in for something even more "to the point" if that's what we chose. I for one like it, as I want criminals to be found and arrested, but it can't be denied that it's a key to the deepest layers of privacy there are, and when that is lost, it will be something forever, as that kind of anonymity will never be regained.


As to Edwin Hall he lost his life, but in another way than his victim. Some people will say that he had lost it even before it started: He was adopted at 7, but was returned to State custody at 15 after threatening the adopted family's daughter at knife's point. Also, he assaulted another boy with a baseball bat. With time, he may have become a violent criminal because those traits were already present in him. However, his sentence wasn't the death penalty that some had wanted, but life in prison without parole: Two lives were ruined which is sad, no matter what.

 

https://people.com/kelsey-smith-case-teen-shopping-anniversary-gift-predator-lurking-parking-lot-8726782 

 

Wikipedia 

 

 


Monday, May 18, 2026

Poem by Else Cederborg: "Crying Out"

 

 

Hello there!
Help!!!
Somewhere, something is crying out
I wonder to whom

A few words
one cry, repeated like heart beats
never any kind of reply
still, somewhere a desperate voice
 is crying out
- crying out
and crying out, but still, no answers 

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Monday, May 11, 2026

When Women Have Had It With A Rapist

 

When it comes to murder the victim most likely is a woman, whereas the murderer is a man. However, sometimes the female victims have had enough, and it even happens that some of these women gang up on the male culprit and set out to kill him. One of these cases is the "execution" of the Indian gangster, murderer and serial rapist Akku Yadav (1971–2004), who started out on his criminal "career" as a child, when his father formed a family gang with his sons and nephews.


There is no doubt about his crimes, but somehow he always got away, scott free which must have been seen as an injustice by those he had injured, harassed, threatened, robbed or raped. The youngest one of his victims was a 10 years old girl, so nobody seemed safe for him. He had been arrested several times, but was never convicted. The last time he was to bail his way out of yet another accusation, but that didn't work out so well for him, as 200 angry women or more stormed the courthouse and killed him.


He was stabbed, stoned, his penis was cut off, and he had chili powder thrown into his face. Also he was set on fire by the angry women who didn't try to get away from the gruesome scenery. On the contrary, all of them claimed to have killed him. Some were arrested, but later on acquitted as all charges against the women eventually were dropped. One detail makes me think that the authorities didn't like the very idea of female killers, and that this was part of their acquittal. As it is, it seems that the police more or less refused to accept the confessions of the women. Instead the police said that the women had protected the real killers, who - lo and behold! - were assumed to be male. None of the women bought that one, but they may have come to enjoy their being able to leave without having to go to jail for what was a murder.

This incident was turned into the film "200: Halla Ho" and a Netflix web series, "Indian Predator: Murder in a Courtroom".


https://www.theguardian.com/world/2005/sep/16/india.gender 


Wikipedia

 

Thursday, May 7, 2026

Gender Games

 

I would have to admit that I do find Eugenia Falleni (ca. 1875-1938) on this photo rather masculine in looks. Actually, I wouldn't be the least surprised at hearing that she in reality was a man, and not a woman in anything but name. However, I would be wrong, because at some time around 1900 Eugenia Falleni gave birth to a daughter which, neither then nor now, is a male ability. (And, by the way, I don't think anybody know who the father of that child was.) Anyway, in her early youth, after her family had moved from Italy to New Zealand, she was nicknamed "Tallyhoe" because she somehow "swaggered like a man" and even cross-dressed.

 

Here Eugenia is as her alter ego, Harry Leo Crawford, who is how she presented herself to the world some time after the birth of her daughter. Not only did she attain a male personality, but, 39 years old, she also married a woman, the widow Annie Birkett, in 1913. Annie was the mother of a boy who came to take part in the fate of the two women.

Annie Birkett

The marriage didn't last that long as Annie suddenly disappeared in a very mysterious manner. What happened? Nobody knew, but as Eugenia/Harry remarried after the disappearance of Annie, who was found dead and maybe even burnt in a cove some time after she disappeared, Eugenia was accused of having murdered her. Something she denied having done. In her first appearance in court she was still dressed as a man, but later on she once again started to dress as a woman.


The "Man-Woman-Case" as it was named became widely known and debated everywhere, but without any real understanding of the Eugenia-Harry-enigma. What was she, did she murder Annie and why did she dress as a man??? Discussions were not bringing any solution to the many enigmas, and Eugenia was sentenced to death for the presumed murder of Annie, but, in reality, maybe also for "falsifying her sex". However, strangely enough she was released in 1931 "because of ill health" and went on with her life, now going by the gender-neutral name of "Jean Ford". In 1938 she died in an accident, but her life is still being discussed by many people who want to find explanations of her and her fate. Nobody has succeeded in that yet, and it may never happen. Some part of the confusion may be her second wife's claim that she never suspected that the individual she knew as her husband was in reality a woman. The claim of the new wife seems a bit far-fetched as the daughter of Eugenia must have been well-known in the society as she testified in the trial of 1920, saying that her mother had always dressed as a man. 

To me it looks like Eugenia was a lesbian, but most likely so was her two wives. All of them chose this "Gender Game" to be able to live a life that was good for them in a society that wasn't too happy about people who didn't really fit in . 


https://www.tepapa.govt.nz/discover-collections/read-watch-play/history/queer-histories/hidden-agender-eugenia-falleni-and 

 

https://murdersmostfoul.com/the-lane-cove-mystery-and-the-tragic-case-of-eugene-falleni/ 

 

Wikipedia

 

Tuesday, May 5, 2026

Left On The Shelf

 

Sexual roles being what they are in a Patriarchal society women have for a very long time period been expected to center their career wishes on their relationship with the man who turns them into a "Mrs." instead of a "Miss". As to men, then they stay "Mr." all their lives which is a neutral term, devoid of any evaluations, except for one important one: They are not female, but male. However, one may assume that they, like everyone else, are aware of the female distinctions that used to - and still do to a certain degree - turn a private relationship with a man into a female career move. To stay a "spinster" wasn't considered a good female career for any woman even though it may have been a voluntary choice, and not a Miss/Mrs.-thing. Both men and women recognized the less good status of an unmarried woman which makes it even more obvious that it was a social set-up.


When one sits down and think it over, it becomes obvious that the female distinctions are society's way of turning what's social into something private. According to this system it's not Society's fault that women are being evaluated in such a specifically sexual manner, almost like animals in a cattle show. Oh no, it's the fault of the young girls and women of all ages: They lack charm and thus can't entice some man to hand them the coveted "Mrs.-title". Or put another way, as they don't have what it takes for women in a Patriarchy, they have been left on the shelf. Now, that many women don't find it worthwhile anymore to center their entire life upon a man, many men have been complaining about all those "aloof and non-responsive women that leave them in solitude". All of a sudden, the male sex has attained their own sexually funded term: They are alone, frustrated and angry, which means that they have become what's called "Incels".


Now these "incels" are not just "male spinsters", because they are full of a blatant hatred of women, harboring weird ideas of male "rights" that they have been "cheated" out of by those unresponsive women. To read their utterances on social medias often is like dipping one's toes into a lake of fire and brimstone. How dare they go on like hateful toddlers demanding tits that don't belong to them? It's quite amazing to watch, and women may fight the most obvious misogyny.

As to cultural critic and journalist Kate Bolick who wrote "Spinster" then her book is advocating the fulfilling life of staying unmarried in a society that expects women to be eager to live the life that the Incels see as Natural. By now, more than 100 million women have chosen the spinster-setting, and the number is growing. 


https://medium.com/@thehappybachelor678/the-rise-of-lonely-single-men-but-romance-is-not-the-solution-a0a34f0dfe02 

 

https://www.zerotolerance.org.uk/news/blog/the-five-core-elements-of-incel-ideology/ 

 

Wikipedia 

 

Sunday, May 3, 2026

To Go By Looks


The childhood-career-plans for this gentleman was to become either an "Indian" or a bookseller, but frankly, I don't think that's what he became when he grew up. No, he looks more like a bookkeeper, i.e. a clerk, working in an office. It made me think of appearances, and how they form our immediate understanding of other people. That was much easier in the past, when poor was poor, and rich was rich, and most likely always flaunting that fact in their dress and manners. Now it's a bit different, to put it that way, as the former status-givers in clothes and looks are not at easy to discern as earlier on. 

When it comes to personality and character it may get tricky to find out how and what people are. As we most often classify others we may be a bit too hasty. 


If she didn't have that gun, nobody would have wondered at her life situation, her social status or anything. Most people wouldn't even try to guess at whom she is, because to them she would just be a poor illiterate woman from some obscure country they don't even know of. They would be very surprised to learn that she is an Albanian woman of 106 years, who is all set to defend herself and her property at all costs, even if it takes shooting someone out to rob or kill her. 

Melina Salazar was rewarded for not going by looks and attitude, as well as being able to give that extra that often makes a real difference to people who are not very popular with others. This man's grumpiness may have closed doors for him, but so may his looks as a poor Veteran. Had he looked rich many people would have overlooked his less pleasant behavior. However, some give-away-symbols may have changed over time as indications of wealth may look like the opposite of what they are. 

Thursday, April 30, 2026

When Words Are Used Differently


As may be well-known by now, I'm not exactly a tRump-fan. Actually, I find him a disaster in every aspects of life and politics. That's why I didn't feel that it was so very strange, or even unexpected, that over time he has received several threats on his life. Maybe, it was a wee-bit "strange" that one of those who presumably wanted to kill him, was the former FBI-director, James Comey. On the other hand, noooo, it wasn't all that strange as he, in his position within the System, really was sitting in the front row with a clear view of what was going on in tRump-land.


However, to me it seemed very weird that the above combination of numbers, presented in sea shells, should post a genuine threat, but if "86" is mobster-slang for "kill", and tRump, strange as it is, is the 47the (as well as 45th) president of the USA, which he is, then it can't be denied that this may be a kind of murder threat. Of course, one needs to know the slang to get the message, and one might ask how the sitting American president would get to know that kind of things. Is he a gangster? Does he have some mob-connections? That shouldn't be beyond me to suspect - and even worse, actually much worse. 


Somehow, tRump and his henchmen fail to see that what they themselves do to annoy, threaten or ridicule everyone not a tRumpified Republican is as much of a crime as all that they accuse the Dems of. It was to be expected, but still, it makes them look very naive and even totally ridiculous. One thing it doesn't make them look like is INNOCENT, because their unfounded accusations make people come to think of some of their grave misdeeds, like for instance the AI-picture of a hog-tied president Joe Biden. 

 

How could something like that make its way into an election-situation? In my opinion, it's the lowest of the lowest, and now that we are talking of threats, then this is a genuine threat of murder which the numbers 8647 isn't without some kind of "translation". Biden didn't deserve anything like that, as he and his party, contrary to tRump and the Republicans, delivered what might be expected in a decent and honorable American president.  


As to the orange Menace, it seems that even dogs know what kind of person he is.